ألم

 

إن أسوأ ألم في هذه الدنيا هو ألم الغدر أو الخيانة

الاحساس بهذا الشعور هو أمر مرعب ومتعب

تحس بأنك محاصر من جميع الجهات

وهناك حرب بين عقلك وقلبك 

فالعقل يستطيع التمييز بين الخطأ والصواب

أما القلب فيقع أسير المشاعر الجميلة

ويبدأ بالتشكيك في كل شي مضى وفي كل شي جميل 

  هذا ما يحطم القلب ويتعب الجسد ويرهق العقل

فيصعب على الانسان إتخاذ القرار 

فمن منظور العقل الأمر واضح والقرار واضح 

ولكن القلب يلتمس الأعذار و يحاول أن يعطي فرصه أخرى

والنفس تحاول أن تهدأ لتقرر دون إندفاع

في هذه الحالة ما على الانسان سوى أن ينسى نفسه قليلا 

وينسى أنانيته و يفكر بوقع قراره على غيره

و سيحس بألم كبير لقلة حيلته وعدم استطاعته فعل ما يريد

و سيكون هناك العديد من التساؤلات في كل أمر

ولكن التوكل على الله سبحانه وتعالى 

يريح ويعيد القليل من البهجة في القلب 

فليس هنالك أعلم بما هو أفضل للانسان غير الله

"وقل لن يصيبنا إلا ما كتب الله لنا"

Trapped

I feel trapped from every corner

My heart and mind are on battle

I'm still under the shock 

I'm doubting everything 

I'm doubting everyone

My heart is crushed into pieces

My mind is torn by the facts

I can't make up my mind

I wished if I never knew

I wished if I was kept in the dark

Maybe then..I wouldn't feel this pain

Maybe then..I wouldn't feel betrayed

I feel that I was living a huge lie

A lie that is tearing me apart

Trapping me from every side

 

I need L.O.V.E

Feelings are all mixed up....Almost exhausted for no apparent reason...

They’re going around in a loop...Causing a burning sensation...

As if they’re crawling too deep…Scratching cruelly from realization…

Heart struggles to stop the beep…Weeping the frustration of treason…

Blood vessels pump the sap…Escorting the abnormal formation…

Mouth closed preventing a chirp…Yet hands are shaking the tension…

Gloomy labyrinth has no map…Spreading fear without limitation…

 

Peace lays only in my sleep…Harboring my soul and emotions…

Different

I believe that we all have our moments that we feel....Wow...It's different...he is different....she is different...I'm different....Cause changes happen even when you less expect it...You might just wake up one day finding yourself going through a phase that makes you feel "I've changed...I'm different now"....No one can tell you if these differences are right wrong...Because most people are different when it comes to certain standards and their way of thinking...So a good change that leads to a nicer difference could be a bad one in someone else's eyes....I think a lot has changed in me and a lot is still remaining the same....Now, I'm living a different life phase never thought I would be living...not now at least....Wonder how that will turn up to be...But I'm believing that everything will turn out to be fine...hopefully...

Sucks

Today morning sucks!! I woke up in a good mood and everything was great till it got ruined by stupid things. I'm still annoyed and don't know how to keep up my cool. I'm reaching a point where I feel that I can't keep everything inside and need to spill some things out. It's causing me pain to keep these things inside especially when they annoy me this much. I know I will probably keep my mouth shut and never talk about it and even forget about it totally later on, but I know that forgetting about it doesn't mean it will be gone...I know it will hunt me later when I'm upset or annoyed...cuz that's just the way I am...I never forget anything no matter what whether they're good things or bad things...The memories are kept inside of me forever I guess...

I guess that sucks sometimes >_<''

Who Says

I heard this new song for Selena Gomez that has wonderful lyrics. Even the official video for the song is amazing. I would love to share this song with everyone and simply tell you all that no one is supposed to tell you what you are even those who knows you...Because deep down you all know that no one knows you like yourself...

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else

You made me insecure

Told me I wasn’t good enough

But who are you to judge

When you’re a diamond in the rough

I’m sure you got some things

You’d like to change about yourself

But when it comes to me

I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na

Na na na

I’m no beauty queen

I’m just beautiful me

Na na na

Na na na

You’ve got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

 

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Who says

 

It’s such a funny thing

How nothing’s funny when it’s you

You tell ‘em what you mean

But they keep whiting out the truth

It’s like a work of art

That never gets to see the light

Keep you beneath the stars

Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na

Na na na

I’m no beauty queen

I’m just beautiful me

Na na na

Na na na

You’ve got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

 

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Who says

Who says you’re not start potential

Who says you’re not presidential

Who says you can’t be in movies

Listen to me, listen to me

Who says you don’t pass the test

Who says you can’t be the best

Who said, who said

Won’t you tell me who said that

Yeah, oh

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Wondering

Work is finally getting serious till the point there is no time to do everything, but I like that...I like my colleagues; everyone are nice. There are things happening in my personal life that is making me say "Thank God it could have been worse"...I believe that having my hubby with me is what makes me think in that way...Somehow with him being by my side, every problem seems small and simple...Makes me appreciate him a lot and wonder how life would be like if he wasn't with me right now...it's hard for me to remember how my life used to be before I married him...Which makes me wonder again, when did I love him this much till the point he's my top priority....Makes me wonder indeed...

Life is a mysterious thing...We could go on forever and no one will be satisfied with his/her life...It's the human nature...Nothing seems to satisfy us humans no matter how things were...Even in the times of our happienss, we sometimes spoil it by doing something stupid or thinking about something else losing our focus on being simply happy....I'm writing this while thinking about a friend who I hope have found happiness in what she's doing...

Welcome Back Me

It's been ages since the last time I've been here. A lot of things changed in my life. I finally started working, moved to another city and living a happy life with my love. I think that a lot of things happened in a short time that at some points during my day I wonder about my grounds and where am I standing right now, everything feels so surreal. I always thought that love is a great thing and it turns out I was right. I won't say I'm living a perfect life, but I'm having a good one :)

I've been missing a lot of my friends lately, it's been a while since the last time I saw a lot of them. Hope that an occasion will occur that will give me the opportunity to see them.

I still can't believe that almost one year has passed since my graduation and almost all my friends are graduating right now. Wow, that makes me feeling old :p

Have a good day everyone ^__^