~ HoPe A NeW DaY wIlL WaSh AwAy My WorRiEs ~

For some reason right now I’m confused with being tired and having a little headache and a little bad feeling considering my studies. I have no idea what should I do to make myself study for real. I only study for real whenever the exam is tomorrow and I always study at the last moment which is the most thing I hate in me. I mean, I like to finish my projects early, my homework sometimes and work, but when it comes to studying, I just leave it to the end of the list. I do not say that I don’t study, I really do. However, it’s not enough since I’m planning to have great grades and increase my GPA. I tried studying in the weekend back at my home, but after couple of days, I just forget everything. But, I find it easier when I restudy it again later. I need a little push up to study and leave the fun to the last. I always prefer playing first, then studying which is bad since I waste a lot of time on playing and have a short time on studying. Then, I have to sleep so late and sometimes I don’t even sleep at all and continue till the next day which is bad for my brain, my body and health. I’ll try my best this week to change that in me. I have a lot of homework and I didn’t even solved one since the submitting is due next week, so I just say to myself that I have a lot of time. I need to organize myself from now, so I walk after it till I graduate and have a good plan on studying and everything.

Another thing that upset me and confuse me is me not being able to design lately because I don’t feel like it and I don’t have inspiration at all. It’s weird since I was a designing maniac who design like 5 awesome wallpapers in a day or at least at the end of my day, I feel like I accomplished something.

Something that slipped my mind and I never thought about is Creating a program or at least a simple one. I don’t even know how to do it and it’s like I’m just waiting till couple of years later to learn what I need to know in order to program something, but there are a lot of things that I can do instead of waiting like reading about it and learning by myself because that’s what true learning is. It’s all about going after what you want to know and you long to know by yourself and by your hard work and you’ll be satisfied by the results. It’s not really a difficult thing to do since I love it and I enjoy it and even if it was a little hard to understand at first, I just need to try over and over again till I accomplish what I want. In order to solve this one, I’m thinking of having some lessons online or read some websites for that purpose and improve my coding and even learn new languages to code on which I believe is going to be handy for sure and going to make me one step closer to my dream of becoming a videogames designer and maker ^__^

I’m also a little mad that I didn’t take any Japanese lessons lately because I’m too busy on studying and having exams everyday, but I’ll do my best to learn at least something everyday even if it was a simple thing. I’m also thinking of taking French course next semester to learn French. I know I’m going to enjoy it a lot!! :D

A lot has happened in this week which I'll write about later in details and specially about .Net Club.

~ I've been tagged by Mitsu ~

The Rule says:“Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!”

Here I go:

1. I talk to myself whenever there is something that upset me.
2. I only love kids when they're quiet and still not able to move because as soon as they move, they become a pain in the ass.
3. I'm allergic to Ketchup and tomato.
4. Everyone tells me that I'm a moody person (I'm in the black list of Mitsu >.<)
5. I take an hour or a half till I fall a sleep.
6. I love to write whenever I'm upset whether it explaining why am I upset or just some quotes and songs.
7. Hot weather, shouting people and feeling hungry makes me angry and drive me mad.
8. I carry my laptop with me wherever I go even in meetings (I'm so loyal ^_^)
9. I take a lot of online lessons in whatever that interest me like Japanese and French language and also Programming.
10. I love to put my laptop in my stomach whenever I'm working on it or watching something (it's something I can't help since I hate putting it in the desk I just like ot put on my legs or stomach)

So, I tag:

*!~Faith~!*
Tortured Lady
Missy
S-Dolphin
butterfly wishez

Mitsu: This is what you asked for hon and I hope you like it. Although it’s so simple. Anyway, hope you will like it and tell me honestly what do you think about it!!

~ BusY dAyS ~

I've been busy a lot lately. I have too load of work, quizes and tests which made me unable to be online for a while. Last week, I had 3 quizes and a test with some homework I have to submit. Some of the quizes were a little hard, but others were good. I'm waiting for the grades and I hope I did well in them all. Also, I have a big goal this semester which is to study from the beginning. I always study whenever I have a quiz or a test, but I want to change that since I want to increase my GPA this course. I don't want to end up regretting not being able to increase it and put the blame on myself. I'll just do everything I can and whatever I get will satisfy me since I worked hard for it. A while ago, I read something on the Internet which touched my heart and I'd love to share it with you all..

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

Many people will walk in
and out of your life,
but only true friends will leave
footprints in your heart

I trully believe in that, it's only true friends who are going to stay forever in our heart and mind. They're memories will always remain in our life.

I've been back to writing again after a long time and I wrote a lot of things which I'm going to post later along with the things I made using photoshop. I guess this are one of the reasons that I'm not online lately since I'm the kind of person who focus in one thing. Lately, I've been focusing on my friends and enjoying my time with them. Also, I've been focusing in having fun at my current hostel since I'm going to move out the next semester and be seperated from all the people I know there. This hostel carried a lot of memories these past two years. I had a lot of hard situations, but also good ones as well. I met a lot of great people and some of them are my best friends now. Whenever I walk in this hostel, each spot has a memory of it's own whether it was with a friend, or being alone in pain. Even the bad memories aren't that bad now and I don't hate to think about them as before.

I trully believe that there are things that changed in me since I entered university, but I don't find them all bad. I'm more social now and I finally stood up for myself when I get hurt. I used to forget about my feelings and care only for others, but uni taught me that I should only care for myself first in order to care for others. I also cherish time more now and hate to waste it on people who don't deserve it. I try myself to learn the word "NO" whenever it's needed, but it's still a little hard for me to say it to others when I don't want to do something.

Mostly, the door to my past has opened again and I'm trying to see the bright side of it and remember the happy times and have a soft smile when I remember the bad times. I discovered something that I find special. Everything that we think is impossible and can't bear with it till forever heals with time. Time trully heal everything even the most painful moments. We sure still remember them and maybe our chests ache whenever their thought across our mind, but still it's not as before. I find out that "Where there is a will, there is a way". Life goes on no matter what you do, it's only your choice whether to move on leaving the past behind your back and make it a push up to the coming, or being locked with the past and each moment for you is painful and reminder of everything that happened before.

I'm happy to say that I'm the kind who is letting go of the past and looking forward for the future and living the present as each new day is a new beginning in the biggest adventure in the whole world which is to live..

Anyway, I gotta go to sleep now. Good night everyone and hope you have a happy good day!! See ya all! ^__^

~ SoMe Wallpapers FrOm ThE PaSt ~

Although I have a blog, I never posted any wallpapers of what I make. I used to have a lot of them since I was so addicted to Photoshop, but unfortuntly my PC was formatted and all of them were gone and I was able only to save a few things. At that time I was preparing for making a website called "Games World" which I wanted it to be for videogames mainly, and a little part for anime and manga. After that I didn't really design a lot like I used to. Maybe because those stuff were my hard work for years and they were more than 400 wallpapers which I made in two years and I really loved them. Anyway, enough from opening a big wound of my heart since the website already was made and gone with the wind in mins. I hope everyone will like these wallpapers and make comments on them. They are old, but not that bad, LOL!!

All of them are 800 x 600





I also like to write a lot. I think I should post something I wrote in the future and show off to you guys, LOL!!

~ It'S FiNaLlY hErE ~

Good Morning everyone!!

This week was really long for me. Uni is back and I couldn't post anything since I was almost all the time with my friends just enjoying my time since there is no real studying in first week. I also wasn't able to be here since I don't have my laptop this week. But, I trully enjoyed it with some of my friends, but other times I was really bored and had bad headaches. I'm happy that the weekend is finally here, so I can sleep probably for these few days since my sleep turned upside down because of uni.

I finally at home and my stomach hurts me like hell since I ate a lot. I miss my mom food and I barely eat in uni in the hostel, I only eat while I'm in the college which are all junk food. I'm also thinking of going to the gym and started working out a little bit so my body have it's original shape before I enter the uni (I gained weight since I came to uni). I'm drinking my fav drink now which is Dew and I think it's probably the big reason for me to gain weight, LOL!!

I'm planning to play today the whole day and tomorrow I'll study a little and I'll solve the h.w I have and prepare my things for uni again and then go back to playing and sleeping. I'll try my best and work hard this course to raise my GPA and have good marks and hopefully a lot of "A", lol so I might not be active like I used to since I need to study everyday and not just when I have a quiz and exams, but still I'll be updating whenever I got the time. So, see ya around everyone and I'll try to check on ur blogs from time to time and I hope you all doing good with your studying or work. Good luck and take care you all!! ^__^

~ I've BeEn TaGgEd ~

Good morning everyone!!

I've been tagged by Mitsu...Thanks hon!!

10 Things you don't know about me??

1. My mood becomes bad the whole day if I was a waked by noises or someone noisy

2. Whatever I hear when I wake up is going to be on my mind the whole day (like if I set the alarm on my cell and it was a song or whatever, it will never leave my mind that day)

3. I love Graphic Design a lot!!

4. I hate people who cheat and make rumors a lot!!

5. I become so upset and full of worries whenever a friend is in a problem or bad mood. (I care sometimes way too much!)

6. I can walk away from friends if I started to hate things in them

7. I hate routine and like to do things different all the time

8. In holidays I like staying so late till the next morning and enjoy my time in anything I like specially the Internet ;)

9. I dislike Arabic teachers and prefer Foreign teachers a lot!! (it's easy to communicate with them)

10. I hate chocolate and I love Vanilla

Ok, this is sooo hard since almost everyone being tagged. Anyway, I tag!!

*!~Faith~!*
TorturedLady
Teep
Dark_AngeL
CeCe

~ YoU mEaN a LoT tO mE ~

Finally in a good mood after a looooong time!! I've been talking to my friend Stranger yesterday till the morning :P and I felt really happy. I don't know why, maybe because I missed her so much and we used to spend a lot of time in uni together and that happened yesterday too ^__^

I also probably said a lot of things which made me feel relaxed and relieved for opening up something to her. I'm trully grateful for having you. I don't think anyone would know me more than you do sweety!! We are so much a like that it probably made us this close. I'm so happy that I met you and this song is dedicated for you hon. Hope you like it!!



PS: For all those who supported me and being there for me, I love you guys and this song is also for you!!

~ A MeLoDy ThAt ChAnGeD mY LiFe ~

In a time when I was lost and lonely and needed someone to be close to me, but pushing everyone away and thinking I'm better off friends because of stuff that happened to me before. This melody was the light for me. I have no idea why though, but it made me smile and feel safe and calm. It filled me with many emotions and feelings that I can't explain or describe. All I know is that I found myslf after hearing this. I found the light that guided me through a lot of hard times. I loved this melody so much and I cherished it a lot. It means a lot to me although some ppl may think it's lame or plain. I find it awesome and amazing!!

It's from a game called Final Fantasy 9 which is one of my fav of FF series. I enjoyed this game so much and I even played it more than 20 times and it have 4 CDs *eyes wide open* Wow!! I also love the main song for this game which called "Melodies Of Life". A part of this song touched my heart so deep and I felt as if it was made for me. A lot of ppl think that videogames are for kids and has no use at all, but for me it was everything since ppl was nothing to me and I was pushing my family away since I have a hard time opening up my heart to anyone or say how I feel. I hope you'll like the melody which called "Song Of Memory" and the song of this game.

I made this music player on it's memory and it has some of my fav songs and melodies from the game ^_^



I hope you'll like my iPod player which was made a long ago, but I forgot about it, LOL!!

~ Weird Things ~

So, some ppl have a weird behaviour on doing things, but some ppl have a weird way in celebrating. Watch this!!



The weird thing is the response for this video. It's cool!!





Today was pretty much normal for me. Didn't do anything important. I just watched a couple episodes for Shounen Onmyouji which was very cool!! I also watched some episodes from Devil Beside You Taiwanee Drama. It's based on manga, but I forgot it's name, but anyway the drama rocks!! It's really cool and funny :D

I have some free time and pretty mad because I don't have Adobe Photoshop to make new designs and design a layout for this blog >.< I'm getting bored with this one already, but I guess I'm gonna change it soon.

Can't imagine that I'll be back to uni after few days. Damn, this vacation wasn't that long and I didn't have so fun on it and now I hope if I go back in time to the beginning of it, so I can really enjoy it to the fulliest :D I need to prepare a lot of stuff for uni and specially mentally I think cause I wanna just sit at home and play some videogames or being online enjoying my time. But I guess, we can't have everything we want I mean life isn't that easy. Maybe, the most reason for me not wanting to go is because I decided to cut off a lot of my time online and concetrate in studying since my grades last semester were simply shit. I hope I'll do better this semester and I also can't wait to meet AD_Queen for the first time and Funky again and have a good long chat about how did we meet by our blogs, LOL!!

~ SuiTaBLe FoR aLl AgEs ~

This anime is awesome and yet suitable to all the ages. It's about some kids who has special powers which are called Alice. This anime is called Gakuen Alice.

Gakuen Alice

Alternative titles:
Alice Academy
La Academia Alice
学園アリス



Story: Mikan is a girl full of vitality living in a local town. She followed her best friend Hotaru who had moved, and she finally reached to Alice Gakuen. But it was a special school that only those who had special abilities called “Alice” could enter. She managed to enter the school, but how did she manage to enter? and what will happen to her life in that school?

This anime is 26 episodes which was first released at 1994, but finally continued being subbed recently. This anime was really hard to find and dropped by all the sub groups, but finally ADTRW has picked up this series and slowly been releasing new episodes and I'll have the chance to finally finish watching it :D

These are the links for the episodes that was released and I'll post more of them when they are out.

Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5
Episode 6
Episode 7
Episode 8
Episode 9
Episode 10
Episode 11
Episode 12
Episode 13
Episode 14
Episode 15
Episode 16
Episode 17
Episode 18
Episode 19

~ My FoRm ~

So, I saw this in one of the blogs I was surfing and I loved the idea. It will make me know more about my visitors (if I had any, LOL) and I wanna know what ppl think about my blog. Hope everyone will stop by and fill in this form. I made it simple, so that everyone could fill it and it won't take more than 5 mintues.


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