Friday, February 26, 2010

Wow, it's abeen a while....

It's been a long time since my last post here. A lot of things happened during that time. It's been couple of months now since my last post.

This post will be like my new page for a new period of my life. I hope that I left everything bad behind me since I made the decision to move on and leave all the bad things that happened in the past. Life isn't easy, that's for sure, but I discovered the secret behind life being hard.

You see, it's not about life. It's more about people. Whether by talking or gestures or anything even the simplest act from those people will be enough to ruin you.

Life isn't easy because people exist in this world.
Life isn't easy because people keep ruining it.
Life isn't easy because people love to destroy it for you.


At the end of last year, I made a discovery on how awful people can be. I realized that I was true from the beginning. I can never trust anyone and I can never be myself with them. So, I keep on wearing my mask and facing the world or more like facing those people with a smile on my face instead of screaming and yelling my heart out at how cruel and bad they are ruining the lives of innocent people just by simply talking.

So, thank god I started this year by going to Japan which was an amazing trip that I will definitely never forget. Japan is an amazing world. I would love to try and live there for a while; therefore, I'm going to do my best during this semester and work harder than ever in order to show my family that I'm serious about this and hopefully I will be able to go to Japan and complete my studies there.

It seems like this semester will be a very busy one for me with 6 courses and 3 club activities to manage. Hopefully, I will be able to do great in all of them. Great and nothing less though, LOL!

The only thing that is making me feel strange this semester is not having my best friends around me. Imagine not having any of your best friends for a while. It sure sucks and it's making me feel bad at the moment. Nothing can beat their absence even by calling them or chatting with them, I still feel strange not having them around. However, it's definitely a new experience, so I'm trying to learn how to spend my day without them being there for me.

I always have been living the way I like and telling those surrounding me that they should do the same. We never know which day will be the end for us and knowing that makes you want to take advantage of the time you have in your hand. Or that's what I believe. However, this view was always rejected by my family who believe that we have to live our life while caring about the people surrounding us.

Recently, a tragedy in the family happened that opened their eyes to my concept. Although I'm sad that the tragedy happened, I'm so happy that they finally got my point. I feel like I've grew in their eyes more. ^__^

"Live the way you love"


2 comments:

daddies little cuttie said...

I allready know ur trip to japan was a blast and I was really happy for u

I disagree with u life is easy its a matter of understanding and cooping with what u have and making it grow life is easy if we controll it I know sometimes it does give us a kick on our toot but it happens for a good reason


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Queen San said...

Thanks dear!!

Well, I get your point but I still didn't reach that point where I have a full control over my life. It's kind of tough to get a full control over your life when you're a girl, LOL!! And living in UAE, hahahaha~~

I hope I will be able to get the trick of life ^^

Thanks for passing by sweetie ^^