Life is about being myself
Someone only I can be
Someone only I can understand
Someone that is unlike everyone else
Someone that has something unique
Because I am ME
God, it's been a long time since I last updated my blog, but how can I do so when everything in my life is pulling me away from the things I love and a big part of that is because of school. Have you ever felt awful to the point of suffocating and not being able to catch up your breath?? It's the way I'm feeling right now. The paths I have to choose are all life matters that I know will leave a big affect on my life.
Right now, I'm feeling like a bird who just loves flying, but going to lose her wings if she chose the wrong path or step. She might choose a path where someone with a gun is waiting to hunt her or another path where she might get attacked by another wild bird.
Till now, I never had to make a choice between two things, I always knew what I wanted. I wanted to be in science department in high school, a student in Information Technology College and specialize in Software Engineering and probably complete my Master Degree in Game Development. So, I've never been under the pressure of choosing one thing among two things, but lately, that was changed. I have to make a choice which will affect my whole future. I tried everything I can in order to make the right choice, I even wrote a list containing the good and bad things regarding each option which didn't work out. I tried other things like talking to my friends and gaining more opinions on the matter, but that didn't resolve my dilemma. So, I thought about imaging and predicting the future for each option. So far, I only could predict and imagine one future and couldn't do the same for the other; therefore, I have to think of something else to compare between the two options because my last thought didn't work out as well.
My mind can't handle thinking 24 hours a day. I truly need to make up my mind quickly or else I'll keep up not being able to sleep, thinking all night long till the morning which is affecting very badly on my health and my energy. Recently, I feel exhausted and in a total different world most of the time. I'm really lost and I try my best to look the strongest girl ever, but this is killing me mentally. However, I decided to open up to some of my friends, more like best friends and hear their thoughts about the whole matter. For once, I truly appreciate friendship and realize how magnificent it is to have a friend and not just any friend, a friend you trust and has a big part in your heart.
I just want to thank Nona for being there for me when I need her and how she supports me and realize my dreams and hopes. You truly opened my eyes to things I never even noticed before, God, I just love you girl!! I can't believe that we didn't get to be friends before, and now this semester you're graduating, but I know deep inside that you'll always be one of my best friends that I truly trust and hopefully my partner in A Games company in the future!
Somz, you, being there just comforts me. You truly one of my best friends and I can never picture my life without you there. I love you a lot sweetie and I love hearing your thoughts and getting your opinions because we somewhat has the same mind.
3laya, you are awesome and cool! I don't think I'll be able to handle the fact that most of my friends are going to graduate this semester if you weren't with me. I'm glad that you always there when I need you and how you remind me of important things that I need to see. Love you hon!!
Recently, I feel like uni is taking all my time. I rarely have any fun now and I am almost busy with projects, work and studying all the time. To say the truth, it's not that I study that much, but it's more like I have a load of work that takes a lot of my time or actually most of my time.
Anyway, the fun and happy things that happened to me from summer till now are a lot. One of them is being accepted as an MSP (Microsoft Student Partner)which is a nice opportunity for having Microsoft sponsor us, so we can or able to do fun stuff or at least activities that attract the students. It's a great experience as I see it and I hope that my internship will be with them. We had one meeting with Microsoft till now which was in summer holiday and I truly enjoyed my time there because I learned a lot of new technologies they are working on and of course, seeing my friends made me happy as well.
Another thing is being part of CITA where I met AD_Queen seeing a great shock on her face, ha ha ha. That something I won't forget I guess, it was fun meeting and I had fun and I am so looking forward to working with them.
Some other things is that one of my favorite idols has came back from studying abroad and now completing his activities, his tours and he's working on a new drama that I am currently watching which is called "Yukan Club".
Can't say more guys because I have finished my class now and I have to meet my sis which is here in uni and her dorm is close to mine (kind of cool to have a sis, you never know when you need something and ask her to bring it to me or something, LOL). That mostly it! Missed you a lot Funky, I hope that I will see you soon sweety ^_^ and AD_Queen: Looking forward to see you again! :)
This pic sums up my state right now. I'm tired and little exhausted from my sleeping habits. It's growing bad with days and I'm worried about my first week in uni.
"When do you sleep?"
A simple question I always hear and especially in the holiday since I was truly missing sleeping so much in uni since there are times that I have to stay all night long to study or work for a project. usually in this holiday, I sleep at 9 am. Sometimes I stay up like today and maybe more like 3 pm or something. I know it's bad for the body, but I can't help it. I can't control it. It's the same thing if I am in bed, I stay for 5 hours most of the time trying to sleep, so I started of making a strategy to tire and exhaust myself up to be able to sleep. But, sometimes that fails to happen because I have the ability to stay awake for the whole day.
Whenever I am in bed, I keep thinking and thinking for hours and hours which is tiring to the mind. Therefore, I rather being online, checking on things or watching movies than staying still in bed. I hope I can find a solution for this soon. At least, before uni starts or I'll be in a serious trouble.
As I promised before, I'll post information about a few dramas that I watched during this holiday. I'll also post link for you all to download the episodes as well or watch them online. I will start with a Japanese Drama called Hana Kimi.
Shot at 2007-08-20
Title: Hana Kimi (Hanazakari no Kimitachi e) / For You in Full Blossom Genre: High school Romance Comedy Episodes: 12 Status: Unfinished / Currently airing
Story
This Drama is based on the popular manga from the same name. The story is about Ashiya Mizuki, a girl who idolizes a guy named Sano Izumi who compete in the High Jump on the t.v, but suddenly stops for an injury. In order to make her idol jump again, she run away from home (U.S) to Japan to be closer to him. She transfer to his High School, but the problem is, it's an all-boys school. So, her adventure of keeping her secret uncovered and pretend to be a guy in an all-boys high school starts.
~ Spoilers ~
Ashiya who transfered all the way to an all-boys school just to meet her idol Sano to convince him to high jump again had a main reason. When Sano was in U.S for a competition, he was badly injured because he saved a girl who was surrounded by bad men at night. That girl was Ashiya herself. That's the reason why she wanted to make him jump again because she feels responsible for what happened to him.
She told her family that she wanted to do something really important for her in Japan. Although they didn't agree, she cut her hair and left U.S (ran from home) and applied to the school which Sano in. She learned how to act, dress, eat and talk like guys which worked very well till she was injured in a marathon and had to go to the nurse's office where her identity was discovered by Dr. Umeda Hokuto. But, after knowing her reasons, he supported her and helped her each time she needed a help.
However, is she's really going to survive now that she moved to Sano's room and started being his roommate?? Will she be able to keep her identity uncovered, or will Sano know that she's a girl?? How will everybody else react if they knew? and how will Nakatsu Shuichi react after having a hard time dealing with his feelings towards her, thinking that she's a guy and he's starting to be a homosexual. This Japanese drama is truly funny. I'm a big fan of Hana Kimi since I read the manga and I loved it. There is also a Taiwanese series of Hana Kimi as well, but the Japanese version is much better.
So far, my rate is 10/10 for this drama. I love the funny soundtracks, the awesome graphics, the funny and different characters and of course the story. I just love the comedy and funny moments this series have. Here is a music video to see how funny this drama is, showing how Nakatsu likes Ayashi, lol. Enjoy ^_^
Here is another music video which introduce the main actors in this series with their real names as well. For those who are fan of Japanese drama, Sano Izumi (Oguri Shun) is Hanazawa Rui from Hana Yori dango I and II. Ashiya Mizuki (Horikita Maki) is the heroine from Nobuta Wo Produce and Kurosagi.
To download the torrents for Hana Kimi drama go here. To watch them online in great quality or download them with veoh player go here. Also, you always can find them in youTube as well. Just search by it's name.
Now, about the next drama which is a really funny one that made me laugh all the time in the first half of it is called Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang which is Korean drama.
The opening for this drama is odd with the main actors wearing some old aged clothes. The story begins when Lee Mong-ryong a guy who gets in fight all the time and been transferring for many times is moving again as well. This time, he transferred from Seoul to a high school in Namwon. (Seoul is a big city while Namwon is like a country side village). He accidentally see Chun-Hyang a girl climbing the wall and jumping to the other side and fall on him while he was shooting a video on his cellphone, so he got embarrassing video of her. She checked his cellphone and was shocked and ended up smashing his phone. In return, Mong-ryong who was upset, got her cellphone as replacement because she didn't agree to repair his and ran away. As a result, they kept in contact, to discover later that they are in the same school as well.
After some events where Mong-ryong and Chun-Hyang ended up sleeping in the same place, but nothing happened between them, they found themselves forced into marriage by their families. They had to agree on the mirrage or Chun-Hyang who is a top student is going to lose her chance of getting into the best University. So, with time, they both develop some feelings for each other and Chun-Hyang change the lazy and spoiled Mong-Ryong to a better man. She even helped him in his studies and he gained that allow him to go to the best University in South Korea as her.
However, Chae-rin who is Mong-ryong's first love who rejected him at the beginning which was one of the reasons he changed his mind about marriage, was dumped. At that time, she started to turn her attentions to Mong-ryong and confess her love to him.
Also, things becomes more complicated when a strict cold man Byun Hak-do falls in love with Chun-hyang who her love changed him to be more softer.
~ Spoilers ~
However, when she refuse him many times and no matter how hard he tries, rather than giving up. Byun Hak-do becomes more determined to make her fall in love with him at any cost taking advantage of the relationship between Mong-ryong and Chae-rin to end up teaming up with Chae-rin to break the couple and their marriage as well. When all their plans seems to fail, Byun Hak-do set up Mong-Ryong for a crime and videotape it to blackmail Chun-hyang into breaking up with Mong-Ryong and being with him instead only a few days before their official wedding ceremony.
Chun-hyang who is forced to obey break up with her husband and pretend to be with Byun Hak-do and do everything he says until the day they are going to leave to Japan together. She ran off from the plane and went on hiding from everyone. What will happen when she ran into Byun Hak-do again? and what will Mong-Ryong do when he know the truth behind her request of divorce?? That is what will you know after you watch this awesome funny drama.
I give this drama 9/10 to be one of the funniest drama I ever watched. It even have some scenes after the episode ends which is as funny as the drama is. My rating was based on the story, the amazing soundtracks that are cute and warm and the characters personalities and acting which is great. This drama also has a part where everything gets complicated and you're not sure how it will end up like.
This is a good music video that I enjoyed watching. It sums up the whole drama. Hope you'll enjoy it too!! ^_^
Finally, university is coming closer and closer by the day and although I'm ready for it (I think) still I will have a hard time saying goodbye to my holiday. I did many things in my holiday that I am satisfied so far. I watched a lot of movies that I missed because of studying. Also, I watched awesome Korean and Japanese Drama that I truly and still enjoying. I watched wonderful anime, read a lot of manga and went shopping for uni. I even took lessons learning Japanese language which so far going really good. Hopefully I'll be able to write the Kanji easily soon.
I've been watching an awesome Korean Drama called "Coffee Prince" which is still airing but it's really addictive. I got hooked to it from the first episode and couldn't stop myself from watching. Here is my review about this awesome drama.
Coffee Prince / 커피프린스 1호점 (or "The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince") Number of Episodes: 17 + 1 special Broadcasting Company: MBC Subbed Episodes So Far: 12 Genre: Romance, Comedy.
Go Eun Chan is a cheerful girl who had to take care of her family after her father died when she was sixteen and started working non stopping to feed her family (her mother and younger sister) by having multiple jobs for the whole day. She is a tomboy who doesn't care for her looks and dress up like guys. One day because of an accident, she was mistaken for a guy by Choi Han Seong. Being asked to be a lover for Choi Han Seong and being paid for it, Go Eun Chan agrees and keep pretending to be a guy. Together they ruined all the arranged marriage done by his grandmother. However, they both starts developing feelings to each other and Choi Han Seong employs Go Eun Chan in his cafe called "Coffee Prince" where only men are working. She kept hiding the truth and couldn't confess to Choi Han Seong about being a woman although she fell in love with him being afraid that he'll fire her. Choi Han Seong who thinks that Go Eun Chan is a man, start having a deep pain and fights over his homosexuality feelings towards her. So, when he discovers that she lied to him and that she's actually a woman, what do you think would happen?? Will they stay together, or not?? Will she be able to work again in Coffee Prince? Watch the drama to know what's going to happen.
I give this drama 10/10 for having great soundtracks that melts the hearts. For having a great story and definitely awesome characters. The drama doesn't concentrate only on those main characters, but they have other characters like the co-workers in the "Coffee Prince", and other main characters as well. Still, there are deep secrets that yet to be revealed.
To know more about this drama or download the episodes, subtitles and OST visit Soompi or D-Addicts.
Here is a music video for Coffee Prince in youTube which. You can also find the 12 subbed episode on youTube or veoh and download them as well. Much better quality than youTube and have more features as well, but you have to register, then download the Veoh Tv player and then, you'll be able to download as much videos as you want and torrents without having a limitation. If you don't want to search for them, just visit Hoomie and watch the 12 episodes online. Anyway, enjoy the music video for now!! ^_^
And for those who like K-Pop, this music video is for you!! Also, another awesome music video with Back Street Boys song "Inconsolable" Enjoy ^_^
Other than this drama I watched a lot of other finished drama like Dal Ja's Spring, Delightful Girl Chun Hyang, Kurosagi and Nobuto Wo Produce. Also, I'm currently watching unfinished Japanese Drama called "Hana Kimi" which is awesome originally taken from a manga from the same name. I will write more reviews about these dramas after a while.
Since university is going to start in the 2nd of September, I have a little more time to enjoy the rest of my holiday. I bought everything needed for uni and I'm going to move to a new hostel (or dorm) as well. Much better place than where I used to be, so I have a feeling that this semester is going to be a better one and I'm going to try my best to start strong, studying comes in the first place and everything else in second. It used to be the opposite, but from now on, I will change that and hopefully it will work. Anyway, I'm out for now and I'll try to post something soon.
It's been a long time since my last post and I'm glad to post again after finishing a long sad time of finals and school. Most of the grades aren't as I expected and in the end I failed to raisemy GPA, but I hope that will change in the future though.
So, I was planning on taking a summer course, but I didn't find any in my uni, so I decided to take one in Italy, but sadly, the trip was canceled in the end. It's for the better though since in this way I'll be able to enjoy my holidy especially that I don't feel like studying at all. The first thing I did after finishing my finals was playing videogames or to be exact PS2. Then, I was planning on going to the cinema, but I didn't like any of the movies shown at that time, so I went to the arcade instead and kept playing the whole day till my legs couldn't carry me anymore :p
Motsly, my holiday is playing videogames, or watching movies, or designing, or writing, or being online. I wanted to take some learning courses online at least at the beginning of July, but I didn't yet. I'm planning to though since I want to take advantage of this holiday. I'm thinking of taking some programming lessons and learning more of Japanese language. I hope that it will be enjoyable as I believe it will be.
Lately, I've been having trouble sleeping. I always have problem with my sleeping habits from time to time, but this time is bad as before when I was in uni. At that time,. I couldn't sleep at all or at least for 1 or 2 hours only. But now, I ca't sleep no matter how hard I try till I get really tired and can't open my eyes anymore. I mean, I stay almost everyday till 9 am or even more. I sometimes even stay till 1 pm or more. My mom is really mad at me and want me to change my sleeping habits and I hope I'll be able to since I know it's not good for my body. but, I tried so many times and I even go to bed early and stay for more than 5 hours not feeling sleepy at all. So, I'm kind of tired of wasting my time like that and thought of taking advantage of it by doing something. It seems like my mom rather me staying in bed than doing anything at all :p
I'm currently listening to a lovely song that I truly like which called "Dear Life" from "Step Up" movie soundtracks and I just love this song. Here the lyrics for the song.
"Dear Life"
Oh my baby, Oh my Love Oooooooooh woah, oh, woah...woah
Early was the morn Flowers filled with dew I became somebody through loving you Softly as a child Born in natural rain I predict the seasons to go unchanged
Sometimes in life You run across a love unknown, Without a reason, it seems like you belong Hold on Dear Life Don’t go off running from what’s new I became somebody through loving you
Warm was the sun That covered my body so Reminded me of you as I’d first known Those was the days The days that changed my life And made me new I became somebody through loving you
Sometimes in life You run across a love unknown Without a reason, it feels like you belong Hold on Dear Life Don’t go off running from what’s new I became somebody through loving you
As the sun shined Down on me I know with you in love is where I wanna be Oooh sometimes I go on through life thinking that love is something that Not meant for me
Woooah...Somebody, somebody.
Hold on dear life Don’t go off running from what’s new I became somebody through loving you I became somebody through loving you Oh, I became somebody through loving you Woah, oh. Oooooooooooo
I don't have anything more to say, nothing really happened, it's the same old things all over again. I just missed my friends and I certainly will check on your blogs soon. Take care till then and wish you all a good day! :)
"Hard times always give me the ability to continue, teach me how hard life is and whatever comes at that time is horrible, but in the end after I get what I want and reach my goal, everything draws a smile on my face because of the pleasure feeling that comes after the hard work"
It's been a long time since my last post in here and it's because I had a lot going on and I needed to take care of cause they are my top priority. Mostly it's because of the quizes, projects, tests, homework and now finals. I don't even have the time to have fun or actually I do, but it's a little and not as I used to have before >.<
A lot have been going on. I finished one of my finals and I'm starting my second one next week. I have been through a lot considering a project with my group which I totally ended up hating myself for it. I wanted another subject for the project and it ended up being something totally different and I ended up doing all the work too which was kind of disappointing because the group is people I know and I'm kind of considering them as friends, but they totally showed as something else. Still, they are good people that I enjoy hang out with, but they are not cool at all when it comes to work. I was planning on working alone on the project I want, but I felt bad for them because I'm going to leave them alone without help and they are only two and I'm the third in the group which is supposed to be 5-6 actually, so it's truly not fair and anyway it was good, but not fun so it's kind of lost the whole purpose.
Other than that, I've been having a good chats with some friends online and I truly discovered that I'm so opened online and closed in real life. It's like I am a totatly different person :p but it's kind of fun since that more than enough to me to be who I want to be, but can't in real life. Trust is a big issue for me and it's not like I don't trust others, it's just openning up to them that is a whole different story.
Anyway, some of the fun I had last week was me and friend SomZ made something that made us laugh so hard, but enjoy our time in the same time. This is what we wrote:
I saw her in the street wearing red and white She caught my heart really uptight She said hi, I said bye I wanted to talk but I was really shy She called her mom and told a lie That I talked to her, but she didn’t reply I was really shocked and gave her the eye She said I’m sorry but I had to try I said don’t worry, and waved goodbye She turned around and started to cry I couldn’t resist the tears in her eyes She was too cute to be passed by Except I knew, she was playing high I went to her and said why She said just go, don’t even try You had your chance and you let it fly She played it tough, acting hard to get I told her fine! I don’t give a shit
LOL, that was funny to make and truly changed my mood. Anyway, that's all for now and I'm not sure if I'll be able to post soon or after the finals, but see you till next time.
For those who are reading this, I missed all of you guys especially Funky, Mitsu, Faith, AD_Queen and TL. I've been wondering how were you lately and sorry I'm not even viewing your blogs anymore, but I will after I finish my finals, start my summer holiday and have fun like a mad girl :p
I know I've been away for a long time, but I have exams and projects that I yet still not finished. In this post I'm going to post the avatars I made and promised you all about and I wrote a lot of things recently that I would like to share with you too.
"When I close my eyes"
When I close my eyes I can see you clearly With a smile on your face You opened your arms for me When I close my eyes I can hear you whispering With a nice breeze of your breath You told me “I love you” When I close my eyes I can feel your touch With those hands of yours You held me closely When I close my eyes I wish I never opened them Knowing you will not be there Wanting to stay in the dream forever
"Loneliness"
Loneliness kills me inside Pulling me to a dark room Blind cover everything Not being able to see anything I move around searching For someone to show me the way The way to my home The way to my life Nothing feels the same Pain is everywhere Trying to ignore the thoughts Trying to ignore the pain Not knowing how to leave Not knowing the way to the door I keep on searching Not giving up yet Thinking about the reason Why should I return? Will someone miss me now Then I hear a voice within me A voice that tells me You are not alone
" To forgive "
To forgive Is not to forget To forgive Is not to hold back To forgive you need to know That after it you will let go To forgive is to remember That we have a room in our heart To start all over again
"Thoughts"
Being lost in my thoughts without figuring out a thing Being confused by my heart without knowing what it means Being hurt by some friends without having any reasons Being stubborn by my pride without thinking about others Being thinking about all of this without sorting anything yet
" Missing Piece "
Knowing that I need to do something Yet not being able to change anything Wondering about how I am to you Yet not accepting to know the answer Having no reason to be this confused Yet not believing the emptiness in my soul Wanting to know your place in my heart Yet not being able to admit it to myself Asking a lot of questions on my mind Yet not having anyone to answer them Trying to believe that you weren't a dream Yet not seeing any sign of you to say you aren't Wishing for you to show up in my life again Yet not ready to be in pain all over again Admitting defeat is what I really should say Yet not being able to give up on you in this way Hoping that you read this wherever you are Yet not sure if that's what I truly want Having nothing more to add or say Yet not happy to finish it this way
I made a wallpaper after a long time, hope you like it because I know I did ^_^
I don't think I'll be posting soon, but I'll try to as soon as I finish my exams and have some free time. Wish you all a good day!!
PS: Mitsu, Funky, Faith, AD_Queen, TL, and for those I forgot to mention. I miss you all and hope you're doing great guys!! Take care and see ya soon! ^_^
For some reason right now I’m confused with being tired and having a little headache and a little bad feeling considering my studies. I have no idea what should I do to make myself study for real. I only study for real whenever the exam is tomorrow and I always study at the last moment which is the most thing I hate in me. I mean, I like to finish my projects early, my homework sometimes and work, but when it comes to studying, I just leave it to the end of the list. I do not say that I don’t study, I really do. However, it’s not enough since I’m planning to have great grades and increase my GPA. I tried studying in the weekend back at my home, but after couple of days, I just forget everything. But, I find it easier when I restudy it again later. I need a little push up to study and leave the fun to the last. I always prefer playing first, then studying which is bad since I waste a lot of time on playing and have a short time on studying. Then, I have to sleep so late and sometimes I don’t even sleep at all and continue till the next day which is bad for my brain, my body and health. I’ll try my best this week to change that in me. I have a lot of homework and I didn’t even solved one since the submitting is due next week, so I just say to myself that I have a lot of time. I need to organize myself from now, so I walk after it till I graduate and have a good plan on studying and everything.
Another thing that upset me and confuse me is me not being able to design lately because I don’t feel like it and I don’t have inspiration at all. It’s weird since I was a designing maniac who design like 5 awesome wallpapers in a day or at least at the end of my day, I feel like I accomplished something.
Something that slipped my mind and I never thought about is Creating a program or at least a simple one. I don’t even know how to do it and it’s like I’m just waiting till couple of years later to learn what I need to know in order to program something, but there are a lot of things that I can do instead of waiting like reading about it and learning by myself because that’s what true learning is. It’s all about going after what you want to know and you long to know by yourself and by your hard work and you’ll be satisfied by the results. It’s not really a difficult thing to do since I love it and I enjoy it and even if it was a little hard to understand at first, I just need to try over and over again till I accomplish what I want. In order to solve this one, I’m thinking of having some lessons online or read some websites for that purpose and improve my coding and even learn new languages to code on which I believe is going to be handy for sure and going to make me one step closer to my dream of becoming a videogames designer and maker ^__^
I’m also a little mad that I didn’t take any Japanese lessons lately because I’m too busy on studying and having exams everyday, but I’ll do my best to learn at least something everyday even if it was a simple thing. I’m also thinking of taking French course next semester to learn French. I know I’m going to enjoy it a lot!! :D
A lot has happened in this week which I'll write about later in details and specially about .Net Club.
The Rule says:“Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!”
Here I go:
1. I talk to myself whenever there is something that upset me. 2. I only love kids when they're quiet and still not able to move because as soon as they move, they become a pain in the ass. 3. I'm allergic to Ketchup and tomato. 4. Everyone tells me that I'm a moody person (I'm in the black list of Mitsu >.<) 5. I take an hour or a half till I fall a sleep. 6. I love to write whenever I'm upset whether it explaining why am I upset or just some quotes and songs. 7. Hot weather, shouting people and feeling hungry makes me angry and drive me mad. 8. I carry my laptop with me wherever I go even in meetings (I'm so loyal ^_^) 9. I take a lot of online lessons in whatever that interest me like Japanese and French language and also Programming. 10. I love to put my laptop in my stomach whenever I'm working on it or watching something (it's something I can't help since I hate putting it in the desk I just like ot put on my legs or stomach)
Mitsu: This is what you asked for hon and I hope you like it. Although it’s so simple. Anyway, hope you will like it and tell me honestly what do you think about it!!
I've been busy a lot lately. I have too load of work, quizes and tests which made me unable to be online for a while. Last week, I had 3 quizes and a test with some homework I have to submit. Some of the quizes were a little hard, but others were good. I'm waiting for the grades and I hope I did well in them all. Also, I have a big goal this semester which is to study from the beginning. I always study whenever I have a quiz or a test, but I want to change that since I want to increase my GPA this course. I don't want to end up regretting not being able to increase it and put the blame on myself. I'll just do everything I can and whatever I get will satisfy me since I worked hard for it. A while ago, I read something on the Internet which touched my heart and I'd love to share it with you all..
A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift. A friend is someone we treasure for our friendship is a gift. A friend is someone who fills our lives with beauty, joy, and grace. And makes the whole world we live in a better and happier place.
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart
I trully believe in that, it's only true friends who are going to stay forever in our heart and mind. They're memories will always remain in our life.
I've been back to writing again after a long time and I wrote a lot of things which I'm going to post later along with the things I made using photoshop. I guess this are one of the reasons that I'm not online lately since I'm the kind of person who focus in one thing. Lately, I've been focusing on my friends and enjoying my time with them. Also, I've been focusing in having fun at my current hostel since I'm going to move out the next semester and be seperated from all the people I know there. This hostel carried a lot of memories these past two years. I had a lot of hard situations, but also good ones as well. I met a lot of great people and some of them are my best friends now. Whenever I walk in this hostel, each spot has a memory of it's own whether it was with a friend, or being alone in pain. Even the bad memories aren't that bad now and I don't hate to think about them as before.
I trully believe that there are things that changed in me since I entered university, but I don't find them all bad. I'm more social now and I finally stood up for myself when I get hurt. I used to forget about my feelings and care only for others, but uni taught me that I should only care for myself first in order to care for others. I also cherish time more now and hate to waste it on people who don't deserve it. I try myself to learn the word "NO" whenever it's needed, but it's still a little hard for me to say it to others when I don't want to do something.
Mostly, the door to my past has opened again and I'm trying to see the bright side of it and remember the happy times and have a soft smile when I remember the bad times. I discovered something that I find special. Everything that we think is impossible and can't bear with it till forever heals with time. Time trully heal everything even the most painful moments. We sure still remember them and maybe our chests ache whenever their thought across our mind, but still it's not as before. I find out that "Where there is a will, there is a way". Life goes on no matter what you do, it's only your choice whether to move on leaving the past behind your back and make it a push up to the coming, or being locked with the past and each moment for you is painful and reminder of everything that happened before.
I'm happy to say that I'm the kind who is letting go of the past and looking forward for the future and living the present as each new day is a new beginning in the biggest adventure in the whole world which is to live..
Anyway, I gotta go to sleep now. Good night everyone and hope you have a happy good day!! See ya all! ^__^
God, it's been a long time since I last updated my blog, but how can I do so when everything in my life is pulling me away from the things I love and a big part of that is because of school. Have you ever felt awful to the point of suffocating and not being able to catch up your breath?? It's the way I'm feeling right now. The paths I have to choose are all life matters that I know will leave a big affect on my life. 
