~ HoPe A NeW DaY wIlL WaSh AwAy My WorRiEs ~

For some reason right now I’m confused with being tired and having a little headache and a little bad feeling considering my studies. I have no idea what should I do to make myself study for real. I only study for real whenever the exam is tomorrow and I always study at the last moment which is the most thing I hate in me. I mean, I like to finish my projects early, my homework sometimes and work, but when it comes to studying, I just leave it to the end of the list. I do not say that I don’t study, I really do. However, it’s not enough since I’m planning to have great grades and increase my GPA. I tried studying in the weekend back at my home, but after couple of days, I just forget everything. But, I find it easier when I restudy it again later. I need a little push up to study and leave the fun to the last. I always prefer playing first, then studying which is bad since I waste a lot of time on playing and have a short time on studying. Then, I have to sleep so late and sometimes I don’t even sleep at all and continue till the next day which is bad for my brain, my body and health. I’ll try my best this week to change that in me. I have a lot of homework and I didn’t even solved one since the submitting is due next week, so I just say to myself that I have a lot of time. I need to organize myself from now, so I walk after it till I graduate and have a good plan on studying and everything.

Another thing that upset me and confuse me is me not being able to design lately because I don’t feel like it and I don’t have inspiration at all. It’s weird since I was a designing maniac who design like 5 awesome wallpapers in a day or at least at the end of my day, I feel like I accomplished something.

Something that slipped my mind and I never thought about is Creating a program or at least a simple one. I don’t even know how to do it and it’s like I’m just waiting till couple of years later to learn what I need to know in order to program something, but there are a lot of things that I can do instead of waiting like reading about it and learning by myself because that’s what true learning is. It’s all about going after what you want to know and you long to know by yourself and by your hard work and you’ll be satisfied by the results. It’s not really a difficult thing to do since I love it and I enjoy it and even if it was a little hard to understand at first, I just need to try over and over again till I accomplish what I want. In order to solve this one, I’m thinking of having some lessons online or read some websites for that purpose and improve my coding and even learn new languages to code on which I believe is going to be handy for sure and going to make me one step closer to my dream of becoming a videogames designer and maker ^__^

I’m also a little mad that I didn’t take any Japanese lessons lately because I’m too busy on studying and having exams everyday, but I’ll do my best to learn at least something everyday even if it was a simple thing. I’m also thinking of taking French course next semester to learn French. I know I’m going to enjoy it a lot!! :D

A lot has happened in this week which I'll write about later in details and specially about .Net Club.

~ I've been tagged by Mitsu ~

The Rule says:“Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!”

Here I go:

1. I talk to myself whenever there is something that upset me.
2. I only love kids when they're quiet and still not able to move because as soon as they move, they become a pain in the ass.
3. I'm allergic to Ketchup and tomato.
4. Everyone tells me that I'm a moody person (I'm in the black list of Mitsu >.<)
5. I take an hour or a half till I fall a sleep.
6. I love to write whenever I'm upset whether it explaining why am I upset or just some quotes and songs.
7. Hot weather, shouting people and feeling hungry makes me angry and drive me mad.
8. I carry my laptop with me wherever I go even in meetings (I'm so loyal ^_^)
9. I take a lot of online lessons in whatever that interest me like Japanese and French language and also Programming.
10. I love to put my laptop in my stomach whenever I'm working on it or watching something (it's something I can't help since I hate putting it in the desk I just like ot put on my legs or stomach)

So, I tag:

*!~Faith~!*
Tortured Lady
Missy
S-Dolphin
butterfly wishez

Mitsu: This is what you asked for hon and I hope you like it. Although it’s so simple. Anyway, hope you will like it and tell me honestly what do you think about it!!

~ BusY dAyS ~

I've been busy a lot lately. I have too load of work, quizes and tests which made me unable to be online for a while. Last week, I had 3 quizes and a test with some homework I have to submit. Some of the quizes were a little hard, but others were good. I'm waiting for the grades and I hope I did well in them all. Also, I have a big goal this semester which is to study from the beginning. I always study whenever I have a quiz or a test, but I want to change that since I want to increase my GPA this course. I don't want to end up regretting not being able to increase it and put the blame on myself. I'll just do everything I can and whatever I get will satisfy me since I worked hard for it. A while ago, I read something on the Internet which touched my heart and I'd love to share it with you all..

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

Many people will walk in
and out of your life,
but only true friends will leave
footprints in your heart

I trully believe in that, it's only true friends who are going to stay forever in our heart and mind. They're memories will always remain in our life.

I've been back to writing again after a long time and I wrote a lot of things which I'm going to post later along with the things I made using photoshop. I guess this are one of the reasons that I'm not online lately since I'm the kind of person who focus in one thing. Lately, I've been focusing on my friends and enjoying my time with them. Also, I've been focusing in having fun at my current hostel since I'm going to move out the next semester and be seperated from all the people I know there. This hostel carried a lot of memories these past two years. I had a lot of hard situations, but also good ones as well. I met a lot of great people and some of them are my best friends now. Whenever I walk in this hostel, each spot has a memory of it's own whether it was with a friend, or being alone in pain. Even the bad memories aren't that bad now and I don't hate to think about them as before.

I trully believe that there are things that changed in me since I entered university, but I don't find them all bad. I'm more social now and I finally stood up for myself when I get hurt. I used to forget about my feelings and care only for others, but uni taught me that I should only care for myself first in order to care for others. I also cherish time more now and hate to waste it on people who don't deserve it. I try myself to learn the word "NO" whenever it's needed, but it's still a little hard for me to say it to others when I don't want to do something.

Mostly, the door to my past has opened again and I'm trying to see the bright side of it and remember the happy times and have a soft smile when I remember the bad times. I discovered something that I find special. Everything that we think is impossible and can't bear with it till forever heals with time. Time trully heal everything even the most painful moments. We sure still remember them and maybe our chests ache whenever their thought across our mind, but still it's not as before. I find out that "Where there is a will, there is a way". Life goes on no matter what you do, it's only your choice whether to move on leaving the past behind your back and make it a push up to the coming, or being locked with the past and each moment for you is painful and reminder of everything that happened before.

I'm happy to say that I'm the kind who is letting go of the past and looking forward for the future and living the present as each new day is a new beginning in the biggest adventure in the whole world which is to live..

Anyway, I gotta go to sleep now. Good night everyone and hope you have a happy good day!! See ya all! ^__^