HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN!!

Yesterday, my cousin has turned one year older to finally reach 21 years old in total. This girl have always gave me a hard time with her sharp tounge, but I swear
I just love how cuuuuute she is and her adorable smile although I think that she laughs a lot causing her to end up in embarassing situations, LOL!!

Unfortunately, we haven't planned for her party during the weekend, so we decided to act fast by the help of the whole gang, hahaha.
So, we throwed her a party yesterday midnight, had to cancel my meeting and the other gang had to cancel and ignore a lot of their tasks and homework, but it was worth it.
I had fun especially taking pictures which is something I always love to do. *grins*

After making us wait for her for almost one hour in order to surprise her, we finally celebrated her birthday! ^___^


Don't you wish to sleep on them??


This is the card I made for her. It sucks though!! >_<


No fancy shoes!! Can you guess which was mine? ^__^


My favorite part of the party!! Candles are ♥!!


Different angles of the candles! I almost took more than 30 shots for them, LOL!


I loved the heart shape the most, but who doesn't?? o_O


These were out simple gifts. Nothing fancy, but the thought what counts, right?


I just loved this tissue box that belongs to my friend. So cuuute!!


My friend lighting the candles and burning her fingers.


We put everything you can think of on the bed, hehehe.

Confusion

What is it that I'm feeling at the moment?? Confusion is surrounding my heart and mind and I can see the path no more.

I wonder how judges feel when they have to make their decision about the suspect, guilty or not, knowing that many lives are counting on them.
The victim, the victim family, the suspect and the supect family. It's the same as doctors, one mistake can kill a patient although it's probably the fate that planned it in that way. Then, what about me? Why am I in this confusion when many poeple are telling me that the decision is easy.

Pick those who love you because you can guarantee they will stay with you forever, but what if I'm the one who is going to walk away?
What if he wasn't my soulmate, the one I dreamed about for my whole life?? What is it that I'm feeling inside that keeps me from agreeing???

Am I truly in love?? But then, how can I know if I was?? I never been in love before, what are the symptoms?? Will someone answer me??

Blank Status

What is it that I'm going through lately? I learned that I should follow my heart and emotions and never go against them to avoid trusting people they are not worth it...

However, if I did follow my heart, how will my future be? I always wonder!

Won't it be amazing if we could just see a little bit or just a single shot from our future??
I know that it could be a bless for some, but hell for others; therefore, it's amazing how God prevented a disaster by unabling us humans to be able to see what the future holds knowing how awful the effect will be, so I'm not complaining.

I wish my mind can operate normally soon, I still can think, but all my thoughts are mixed up and I feel like I'm thinking of hundred thoughts at the same time resulting in thousands of thoughts in a day. Sleeping has became useless when I keep having dreams re-living my day and my reaction to some situations as if I'm going through a revision.

Will this last only for the end of this semester? Is it resulted from my tough schedule and six courses? Or, is it a result of my heart fighting with my mind, each trying to prove their point to the other???
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