I just finished watching Koizora ~ Sky of love drama which is only 6 episodes long; however, I wasn't ready to cry this much. My eyes now are totally red as if they are bleeding blood or something. I cried a lot and now I'm feeling exhausted and tired. Can't describe how I feel really, the story touched me real bad. I always have loved the sky and it always meant something special to me, so seeing it being appreciated and mentioned a lot in the drama made me so happy. But, I truly can't stop feeling bad for Mika (the heroine), she's really pitiful. I can't believe that this drama is based on a true story because it's just too sad, but one of my friends has gone through such pain as well and it keeps getting worse with other problems and the loss of other people as well, so I truly believe that such thing can happen to anyone, but hopefully NOT to me, I won't be able to live after losing someone I love especially if it was a lover since I am the type once in love, will do and give anything to the one I love with all my heart to the point where my life will mostly revolve around him and HIM only.
God! I'm starting to have a headache after all those tears, this is why I didn't want to watch it in the first place, but I don't regret it. It's truly worth watching. I don't know about the movie, but this drama was AMAZING! The acting wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but its good because I won't be crying if I didn't get emotionally involved with the characters, right?? But truly, I knew how it will end, but I kept praying that it won't end in that sad way; however, it actually did and made me disappointed although there is a part where I didn't get what does it say. So, Mika end up having a kid at the end of the drama, whose that girl is?? Is she's Hiro's daughter (she discovered that she's pregnant from him after a while from his death)or does it mean that Mika got married now and is leading a happy life??? I know that the later is the answer although I'm wishing for the first assumption to be the right one, so at least, Mika will have something from Hiro to always remember and treasure.
♥♥Anyway, love is amazing isn't it? I truly wish I could fall in love with someone who loves me that much to do anything to go to the extent of preventing me from feeling pain even if he does feel it because that is true love, without any selfishness and always sacrificing yourself for your lover thinking of him/her before yourself. It's a love I'm sure all of us whether we are girls/guys dream of!! I wonder if someday I'll be able to have such an amazing relationship with a wonderful love like that! This drama made me wonder a lot about the future and how freaked out I would be once I get a love like that because the thought of losing it would be always there as well. The drama that goes in my friends' lives and now this one, makes me more determined to always show those who surround me how much I love them whether they are friends, family or my soul mate. I hope someday you'll be able to read this and know how I feel for all of you.
♥ To my family ♥Sorry for always giving you a hard time, I know I'm acting like a spoiled rat sometimes, but I swear, I just love you all so much to the extent where I get suffocated till I cry when I merely imagine losing you or have nightmares on such things. I can't live without any of you although I know no one is going to live forever. I just wish that my day will come before any of you, so I won't be the one feeling pain which is a selfish thing to ask for since I know you all will feel the pain instead. May God always protect you, bless you and treasure you for me because I would lose a part from myself if I lost any of you. You mean the world to me and although I know all of you will be shocked to know this and probably won't believe me as well because I suck in showing it to all of you, but let me just tell you something I truly believe in: "Love isn't something that always has to be said, it's something that is shown. I might not always be there with you all and I do spend time by myself in my room more than I spend it with you, but you're always on my mind and my heart. For me, love is not about distance because I would always love you no matter where I was or how far I am from you. Love is all about how much you treasure someone and how much you think about someone, so even though I'm not there all the time, I would like you to know that I treasure you all so much that you pop up all the time on my mind and I can't stop thinking about any of you..". so, believe me when I say: I Love you all ♥♥♥ To my friends ♥I can't believe that at some point in my life, I hated something called friends and I could only see them as people who only know how to betray! I came to understand the true meaning of friendship after going through a lot of hardships that although they were painful and remembering them makes my heart ache all over, but I don't regret being through them and I don't regret the pain that I felt or the betrayal that I've been through because everything that happened taught me who is the true friend and taught me how to treasure them! I lived a part of my life without friends and it wasn't as everyone says it is, impossible, but it sure is not the same and you keep feeling that there is an empty space in your heart need to be filled by the love of your friends!! I'm so grateful to God for writing me my fate. I'm so glad that I was able to meet great friends that became connected to my heart and soul. I even have more than one best friend which is an amazing feeling. I wouldn't trade you guys for anything no matter what anyone says. I simply love you without having great reasons because I truly believe that we don't need a reason to love someone! I know I'm not a good person in showing her emotions to others, but I want you all to know and be sure that I truly TRULY LOVE you from the bottom of my heart. XOXO ♥♥ ♥ To my soul mate ♥I hope that I will be able to meet you soon. For my whole life, I've been waiting patiently for you to show up, melt my heart and take away all the pain I ever felt in my life replacing it with only happiness. I know that we might have fights, big fights, but I promise you that at the end of the day, I'll make you forget what the fight was about and it'll be like nothing ever happened. I saved everything for you to have, my heart, my soul and my life so I hope you did save yours for me. I hope that you will teach me how to say "I love you" directly into your eyes, without being embarrassed or thinking about my pride! I hope that you'll be a gentle, funny, caring, possessive, jealous person and give me hard times sometimes, no let's say rarely, I don't want to end up not having my way sometimes ~ hehe!! Don't be afraid from my past because I never loved anyone before because I've been waiting to have you as my first and last love. I might give you headaches sometimes especially when it comes to my taste in food, but I know that you'll give me headaches at a lot of different things, so we're even then, LOL!! I promise you that I'll do my best in order to make you happy or actually make us both happy as long as you give me as much as I give you and we trade our love with each other. Waiting for you, hoping that our meeting will be soon! ♥♥ Wow, it's 8:41 am now and I'm still not sleeping. I have a big day tomorrow or actually today since I need to go back to the dorms, so I'm out for today. Wishing to everyone who reads this a good day and a happy life with your beloved ones. An advice, Treasure those who you love and show them your feelings in your own way so that you will never regret not doing it!! ^__^
Oyasumi Nasai ~
