Dedicated to me

I still can't believe how fast things are...I feel like a lot is happening in just a short time...but it definitely feel great...so it's all good....I don't mind changing for the one I love, but definitely not entirely...I think I met my soulmate which is scaring me a little bit because I feel extremely emotional when it comes to him till the point that I get loss...I wish me a great start with him :)

Pain

I try to go on like I never knew you
I try to pretend that I never loved you
But the truth is that I'm so hurt by you
Till the point I feel like hating you 

私は生きている

To those who think that darkness is filling their heart and life...till the point they feel suffocated and alone in this world...to myself

Imagine if today was your last day alive!?

What would you do?

Would you waste your time fighting ppl?
Or would you insist your right in meaningless arguments?

Would you meet your cool friends and have a good laugh?
Or would you rather spend your time with the person you love?

Would you go somewhere you always have wished to go to?
Or would you go to your secret place and be overwhelmed with emotions?

Would you call all the people you care about?
Or would you rather stay alone away from everyone else?

Would you spend it doing something so crazy and out of the ordinary?
Or would you take advantage of your day and pray to God to be forgiven?

Just thinking of today as being your last day makes you hold on to life thinking that..I still have a lot to do...I still have so many things I want to do...

Life will no longer be black and white...you will see the world in colors of the sunshine and rainbow...Cuz you will realize the ultimate gift every person in this world has which is...Being alive!!

『Live today like there's no tomorrow』

Have you ever?

 "Sometimes, you're not really who you think you are"

Have you ever found out something new in you? Something you never knew before. I discovered lately that the mood of a person could change a lot in his/her attitude. Life is truly a journey mainly to find out who you are and what you are capable of.

It's weird how a person could never be in one state or with one personality. Isn't it weird to be an angel, but something happens and you turn to the devil himself? Of course, there are always those who stay the same no matter what happens, but I think normal people do change depending on the time and events.

I truly believe that one person have multiple personalities where each personality is designed for a specific situation. 

Good Morning☻

"Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it" 

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

It's always been a habit for me to have a straight face that you can't get my emotions from. However, I noticed the effect of a smile on those who surround me including myself. Your smile doesn't only affect the people around you, it also affects you. 

I believe that a smile simply makes your life or those around you more beautiful☻

The Need For Changes...

Have you ever reached a point where you wanted to make new changes. It started almost 3 months ago where I started to make changes in my room. I changed my room style, my bed sheet, the carpet and soon will change my curtains and bed sheet again, lol!

It reached a point where the change was obvious on some of my clothes and me as well. Some things have changed in me, but others are still in the progress. I believe that I needed those changes and I'm glad I did change in different ways.

I feel that these changes are making me happier...I wonder if it will make me get used to changing things once in a while...But, I don't think little changes will hurt...

"You're not a wave, you're a part of the ocean"

What Doesn't Kill You Make You Stronger

Sitting alone in the dark in my room while looking at my surroundings where I laid my eyes on my candles. I remembered how fire is hateful to us because it cause us pain. But then I realized, sometimes we need to feel pain and go through something hurtful to become stronger. If I started to count the happy moments and sad ones I had in my whole life till now, it would be hard. Because I had hundreds of happy moments, but thousands of sad ones. Or so that's what my memory tells me. But my heart knows how wrong that is....

We all go through bad times and happy times almost equally. The smile I have from hearing a joke is a happy moment. The laughs and the fun I feel with my friends is a happy moment. The glow in my eyes when I see someone close to me happy is another happy moment. The thought of me being healthy, being able to see, hear, touch and feel, walk and run around is another happy moment. The bless of having a religion that warms the heart and make your soul peaceful is also a happy moment. I realized how we tend to forget what are we happy for or our happy moments in our lives, but we always remember the bad and painful things. I'm one of those people who can't forget what happens. Not in happy moments, nope....I can't forget when I get hurt....When I feel pain....When I lose something precious....and the list continues....So, let's take some moment to think to ourselves, what are we happy for?

I know I'm talking in everyone's place when I say, our happiest moment currently is being alive surrounded by our beloved ones, family in this holy month. I think our happy moments also keep us stronger just as the sad ones.  

New Life...New Path

It's been a long journey...I even lost count of the days...

It took me by surprise that five years have finally passed...

I definitely wasn't prepared...I'm still not prepared....

So many things I need to think about...

So many choices to make....

So many options to choose from...

But that how life is....

It's NEVER easy, but not always HARD!

I wonder what my next step will be?

How will my new journey start?

I didn't set up my mind yet! 

I'm just waiting for a sign...

A sign that will let me know...

This is how it's supposed to be...

This is what it's meant to be...

Wow, it's abeen a while....

It's been a long time since my last post here. A lot of things happened during that time. It's been couple of months now since my last post.

This post will be like my new page for a new period of my life. I hope that I left everything bad behind me since I made the decision to move on and leave all the bad things that happened in the past. Life isn't easy, that's for sure, but I discovered the secret behind life being hard.

You see, it's not about life. It's more about people. Whether by talking or gestures or anything even the simplest act from those people will be enough to ruin you.

Life isn't easy because people exist in this world.
Life isn't easy because people keep ruining it.
Life isn't easy because people love to destroy it for you.

At the end of last year, I made a discovery on how awful people can be. I realized that I was true from the beginning. I can never trust anyone and I can never be myself with them. So, I keep on wearing my mask and facing the world or more like facing those people with a smile on my face instead of screaming and yelling my heart out at how cruel and bad they are ruining the lives of innocent people just by simply talking.

So, thank god I started this year by going to Japan which was an amazing trip that I will definitely never forget. Japan is an amazing world. I would love to try and live there for a while; therefore, I'm going to do my best during this semester and work harder than ever in order to show my family that I'm serious about this and hopefully I will be able to go to Japan and complete my studies there.

It seems like this semester will be a very busy one for me with 6 courses and 3 club activities to manage. Hopefully, I will be able to do great in all of them. Great and nothing less though, LOL!

The only thing that is making me feel strange this semester is not having my best friends around me. Imagine not having any of your best friends for a while. It sure sucks and it's making me feel bad at the moment. Nothing can beat their absence even by calling them or chatting with them, I still feel strange not having them around. However, it's definitely a new experience, so I'm trying to learn how to spend my day without them being there for me.

I always have been living the way I like and telling those surrounding me that they should do the same. We never know which day will be the end for us and knowing that makes you want to take advantage of the time you have in your hand. Or that's what I believe. However, this view was always rejected by my family who believe that we have to live our life while caring about the people surrounding us.

Recently, a tragedy in the family happened that opened their eyes to my concept. Although I'm sad that the tragedy happened, I'm so happy that they finally got my point. I feel like I've grew in their eyes more. ^__^

"Live the way you love"