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How does it feel when you find yourself going around a circle not knowing your destination as if you're driving into a roundabout continuously without stopping??

The outcome will simply be feeling dizzy and fidgety.

Imagine been through a week where all you can feel is pure stress, tiredness and hunger to sleep normally. And after going through such a week and instead of getting what you wanted which is a simply appreciation, you get the opposite instead crashing you real hard in unexpected way.

And here I was, believing little bit about the "Law of Attraction" and how if I believed in something, I will get it which I did. I believed that we're going to knock them down with our demo and presentation, but unfortunately, it didn't happen.

I still can't forgive the teacher at all for killing my hopes like that. I don't hate him, but I feel like I truly don't want to see him ever again in my life. I wonder when I became this person, who holds grudges against people. I still remember the time when I used to be a kid, with a big white heart pure as the snow who couldn't hate anyone even if she tried to.

I guess, there will come a time when I will go through a situation as twice as bad as this one that will make me laugh at this memory thinking that this was definitely nothing.

Thinking about the future scares me. Even though I sometimes complain about university, I wonder how things will be for me after I graduate. Where will I work? How will it be like? What about marriage? Kids? Responsibility? Busy life? More stress? No time for fun? All this keeps running through my head all the time helping me to be patient through the one year left for me in the university knowing that, it will be nothing compared to the outside world far away from the university walls that are protecting us.

So here I am, alone, wondering, about the future, remembering the past and living the present...

PS: Thanks Nona for the picture! ^___^